Happy Father's Day

“Nothing seems the same”

I miss your face,

I miss your smile.

I miss the comfort in your voice.

I miss the feeling 
of knowing you are there,
And there's nothing in the world to fear.

I dread coming home now,
cuz you are not there.
And now I admit,I do have fears.

I wait for the familiar knock,
or the sound of your door.
But it breaks my heart,
knowing you are no more.

You were there as a father,

and as a mother as well.

But now none are here,

And it's so hard to dwell. 

I'm trying to stay strong 

but my heart wants to sink,
I miss you immensely,
there's nothing else to think. 

You were my shelter,

who helped me stand tall,
But if now I trip, 

there's no one to break my fall.

You gave me so much,

more than I deserved.

No matter the circumstances,

 I know I was loved.

I know I'll be fine,

and I'll get used to the pain. 

But without you My Father, 

nothing seems the same!...

It is You who matters!

To let go or to hang on.. Nothing confuses me more. Hanging on might give eternal happiness to me but might steal some smiles from the crowd around.. but then again.. how long will this crowd follow me? At some point of time, I would have to stand alone and if at that point I don't have my happiness what else would I be left with? A heart full of aches and no one to console?!!..
This life is not refundable or exchangeable so why not grasp on to something which is worthing clutching on. Life isn't a bed of roses, no one promised it to be.. so then why not follow where the heart is pointing at. Since at the end of the day, it is you who matters!!

A moment so still !!

Life has come to a moment so still,
losing all hope and I’m giving in.
Step by step I’m losing my balance; 

my dwelling of crystal has started to shatter.
Being sucked away by the outbursts of anger, 

to breathe or to live; now nothing matters.
Moment by moment I lost in the struggle, 

withered and broken, lost in the hustle.

Way out..

Sometimes you need to turn yourself upside down in order to comprehend the complexities of life in a different angle.. That might not fix the issue but might show you a way out.. That way might not be perfect or easy but can turn into a new beginning..

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Nothing serious as such

This aches too much,
too much for me to bear.
I'm standing on the edge,
and my heart is full of fear.

Fear of what? I hear them say,
I look at them and then I turn away,
I'm tired and exhausted, I've tried my luck.
I look down for a while and tears well up.

To know and trust me and laugh along,
is an easy job, not difficult at all.
You slipped once and I held you strong,
I trip every minute, who will break my fall.

You hear me say,
that ofcourse I'm okay.
But if you want the truth,
then hang around, just for one day.

....I keep on twisting,
the pen in my hand.
Cuz there is too much to write,
but my mind has gone blank.

I'm not making a fuss,
or even complaining too much.
This is just a poem,
nothing serious as such!!

There is NOTHING absolutely nothing half so much worth doing as simply messing about in boats - Kenneth Grahame

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