Left Untouched!

I lose myself within myself, the complexities that surround me are drowning me in depths unknown.. Depths which have no end no beginning even.. How it sucks you in, that is unknown but this depth can break you and toss you around in a million invisible pieces. You can't even pick them up to put yourself back together again.. You remain those invisible little pieces and your identity is lost without being explored, you are left untouched..

Love will come through..

With every beat of this heart life moves away,
Taking away the comforts and leaving me astray. 

Aloof and stranded I feel once again, 

Hope and belief is beginning to fade.

I can’t blame you or anyone around; 

this wrath is within, screaming out loud. 

I knew it in my heart, I could see the end of tunnel, 

this chaos is within no light can make it settle. 

Nothing comes easy in life, I was told, 

but love for once I desperately want to hold. 

But it tries to be like water, leaking from every crack, 

rushing away so easily and no way to call it back. 

One thing I wish and hope it to come true, 

this pain is all a dream and love will come through.

Nothing Remains

Empty spaces and deserted places,

Lost between a bunch of mazes.

A lump in my throat and this shiver within,

A void inside and no one to fill in.

The world around, seems the same,

But now for me nothing remains..

Still holding on..

Where ever or how ever, I'm still holding on,

Content and at ease I have moved on.

But this moving on has a side,

Which is not so pleasant nor a good sight.

I'm happy and grateful for what I have,

But I actually moved on? now that is pretty sad.

I'm used to coming back to an empty abode,

But that does not mean, I don't feel it anymore.

I have a lovely life and I enjoy every moment,

But deep down inside, I'm still empty and vacant.

I know the tunnel will end and I'll see a new dawn,

But these roses I hold, have too many thorns.

Where ever or however, I'm still holding on,

Content and at ease, I have moved on...

Alone!

You come in this world alone and you die alone.. You meet people, interact, socialize, fall in love but still you are alone. You're identity is alone. You're being is alone.. You can't blame anyone for this loneliness.. Since there is no one to blame.. Nothing completes you.. Not even love. I won't say that love won't keep you happy.. Obviously it will.. It's the best feeling to love and to be loved in return but then again. You are with someone you love but the loneliness is there.. You are connected yet, some string inside you is still hanging loose and it will remain that way always.. That string will remind you that you come in this world alone and you die alone.. That is how it is supposed to be.. That is how life is..

Intoxicated!

Being intoxicated does not necessarily require you to be drunk. Does it? Can't you just.. have it somehow. A state of mind which makes you unaware of the harsh realities of life.. Or if not harsh, just life. It makes you feelingless even when you are stabbed in the chest several times. It makes you numb.. Numb to the core. Nothing bothers you, nothing at all.. Love, hatred, loss; these become just mere words. You look but you don't see, you touch but you don't feel, you smile but it's fake, you laugh but it's vacant..
Is that how intoxication feels? If so, I would want to wake up intoxicated everyday. What a sound and peaceful world that would be.

It moves on..

Death! This has to be the worst fact of life. A loved one leaving you forever is the hardest reality to digest. Someone going to a place unknown and then no means of contact, no phone calls, no emails, no Skype or SMS even? Not fair eh?

Death leaves an irreparable mark on your mind, body and soul and yet you live. You smile, laugh, eat, go to work, sleep party with friends... Well you live. I find it quite ironic and somewhat interesting as well as how we manage to move on with life. A person who might have been the world to you leaves and you feel stranded alone on an island but yet like Robinson Crusoe you resurrect a life for you. This is how life is supposed to be then I guess. It's a constant process, a constant struggle if I try to review it through my past experiences. You lose people and you feel choked instantly but that rope tied around your neck is released slowly and gently, well not gently, forever goodbyes can Not be gentle but anyway the blurriness caused by the tears clears away and then you feel better... Normal! But mind you,the heart wrenching pain is still there but you get used to it.

They say; 'Time is a great healer'. And I believe that is an over rated statement that I have heard a gazillion times. Time only helps you in getting used to the pain. Nothing else!
Life can be easily, infact conveniently summed up into three words.. It moves on! Simple!